Happy Birthday to me! In years past I found this day to be a bit depressing....no one made a big deal out of it! LOL Selfish thinking, I know. But not this year.....my attitude has changed and for a good reason. I have breast cancer. Thankfully, the Dr's believe it has been caught early...the 'spot' is tiny and for that I am grateful. Now I wait for a call from the surgeon's office to get this baby out! I believe I have a guardian angel who is looking out for me. Here's why:
We moved here in 2012. I had never found a family Dr and had never had a mammogram (I turned 53 today!). They scared me...the thought of these puppies being squeezed in a vice grip...YIKES! Well, this June, if you remember, I had a nasty cold with an even nastier cough. That cough was so bad I believe I dislocated or bruised some ribs. It didn't want to go away and I was tired....tired of coughing and tired of not sleeping! So, on the urging of friends and my Hubby, I called a Doctor. Down here, IF you can find a Dr that takes new patients you first have to book a meet and greet. Well, I was "dying" on July 5th and couldn't get to see my new Dr for a meet and greet until August 3rd! I'd be long gone by then (tee hee) so I hauled myself into emergency...the cold eventually went away, the ribs slowly but eventually healed and on August 3rd I went to meet my new Dr. She is a young gal, newly practicing and she put me through the ringer...and for that I am thankful. Besides the usually "old lady" tests for colon cancer, cholesterol, diabetes and pap test I was sent for a mammogram. You know what? The squeeze wasn't that bad (as I wrote in a previous post). I was called back for an ultrasound and then a biopsy. On Friday, September 16th, I got my results. So my guardian angel made sure I was sick enough to seek out a Dr (because honestly, I likely wouldn't have) and kept me on track by going to my appointments.
Apparently this little spot, which was found by the radiologist with the highest breast cancer detection rate in all of Alberta (thanks guardian angel!!) appears not to have spread anywhere.....but it will if left alone. So I am anxious to get it out. The surgeon will likely perform a lumpectomy and will confirm whether or not it has spread and I am unsure of what else I will have to do but I WILL do it all! Whatever is asked of me!
The moral of my story is that I hope other women are not scared to have a mammogram as early detection is so important and we all have a life to live.....for me I have children and grandchildren to be here for and quite possibly a dream to fulfil (although if we sold here and found an acreage I might be content to just be in the quiet country air with Hubby, our dogs and my own stitching....I just read two of Susan Branch's books and I loved her story of being in a little cottage....you likely have no idea what I am talking about! LOL!). As my BFF Kim said, this will be a blip in my life. For me it was a wake up call to learn about how important it is to take care of myself as I have never been a run-to-the-dr kind of person.
So I will not sit and sulk this year. I have to go to work with little munchkins this afternoon who are happy to see me, want me to play with them and they make me smile! Daughter 2 said she will cook me supper and I will likely have a visit from my pal Sue. Maybe I'll get some sewing or stitching in today. Life is great...it truly is!